the terminator vs jesus

i had to fire someone today. it was very arnold schwarzenegger. it didn't feel very jesus-like. would jesus fire someone? every day i wonder if my job is making it harder for me to be a christian or if it's just me. she cried once she stopped trying to talk her way out of it and realized that wasn't going to work. we thanked her for her work and wished her the best of luck at her new job. i cried after she left. it wasn't very manager of me, but it was very me of me.

so i guess i'm okay with that one part.

the best part of my day may have actually been that cry there in my back office, in front of my boss. i think part of me was just really glad that i felt bad about it. like there was still something compassionate inside of me, even if what i had just done wasn't very much so. the other best part of my day was when i was biking home at twilight and a group of black teenagers (dudes) started to break out into song:

I know you want to leave me, but I refuse to let you go.
If I have to beg and plead for your sympathy, I don't mind, cause you mean that much to me.

perfect.